Thursday, 19 May 2011

Friendships Lost....

It seems to me that I do a really good job of losing friends. Over the years I seem to have lost endless amounts of friends I once cared about. I don't think I am that difficult to get along with, it just seems that people don't think as highly of me as I think (or thought) about them.

I don't think I ask a lot from my so called friends, maybe a text now and again to ask me how I am or maybe an invitation to something they are doing. In return they get a loyal friend, someone who would bend over backwards for them. Someone who would drop everything at a moments notice to be there for them.
A fair trade....Or so I thought.

A year ago I thought I had lots of friends. People who cared about me, people who wanted me to be happy and people I thought I would be friends with for a long time. Little did I know how everything could change. Although there are a few people I socialise with, I can count possibly two or three friends who I keep in regular contact with and only one friend who truly has time for me and who I tell everything to without being judged.

When I went travelling it was to make life better, now it seems I was out of site out of mind.
It was a shocking turn of events.

Don't get me wrong, I know people have lives, work, kids, etc...but once in a while it would be nice not be to be the one chasing everyone else for a little bit of attention. Just once it would be nice to think that someone has thought about me for a change and that I am important to them in some small way.

Maybe, I am difficult to like? Maybe this is all my fault? Maybe I am too nice to people and they think they can walk on me?

If only everything were easier.......


  1. Ugh, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I find as I get older, I learn who my true friends are...the ones who stick by you through thick and thin, the ones who don't judge, the ones who call just to say hello but don't necessarily want anything in return.

    To me, at this point in my life, I'd rather have one or two very good friends than a handful of friends who could care less.

    It sounds like you are an amazing's too bad that others haven't shown you the appreciation and attention you deserve.

  2. Thanks for the comment and for becoming a follower! I suppose true friends show themselves in time, Thanks for the advice x


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